sometimes I kiss people I shouldn’t kiss and let them unbutton my jeans sometimes I leave English class without asking and walk in angular circles until I can hear the blood rushing under my skin sometimes I run until I can’t breathe sometimes I sit in the rain sometimes I sleep for six hours in the middle of the day
sometimes I drive too fast and listen to my music so loud that it hurts sometimes I drink until everything goes black and I don’t remember talking about you all night (even though I do)
sometimes I cry about books and about people who died hundreds of years ago sometimes I don’t cry even though I want to more than anything sometimes I ignore the people I love sometimes I hold myself to keep everything in because you are not here to do it
sometimes I think I’m alive sometimes I think I probably never will be
I think if some one were to ask me what a perfect relationship was I would tell them it is being with some one who, makes saying good bye so hard, some one who at the end of the day.. at the end of it all, their arms are the only place you want to be, some one who is your very Bestfriend, who challenges your mind, some one whom you can laugh for hours on end with till your stomachs hurt and your cheeks freeze up, some one who fascinates you even with the simplest of things, who sings to you their favorite songs, some one who wipes away the tears from a bad day, some one who doesn’t promise a perfect tomorrow but as long as you have each other it can be, some one who knows every part of you and still wants to learn more, some one whom your mind wonders to at 3 in the morning when you are restless, someone who is the last person you think about at night and the first person you think about when you wake up, some one who isn’t afraid to get mad at you when you do something stupid, some one who is honest and will never sugar coat anything, some one who is loyal and faithful, some one who is so different and brings other things to the table than you do, who would protect you with all they have, some one who is so proud of everything you do and will accomplish in life, but most importantly they are proud to be with you, and to think that you are the most incredibly beautiful human being even with your flaws included, and some one who will never let you give up, because what you have is worth fighting for. I think that is what it’s really all about. And if you have some one who are those things for you, I’d say you should never let them out of your sight, because that is rare, and you have one of the good ones. And for me those things, are you.